We Might As Well Be Strangers - Keane

I don't know your face no more
Or feel the touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

The heat is on

Alllright..

Exams start on the 24th of November. Thats in 31 days. NUS kids will know that this is now double digit week.. Week 10.. It signifies the beginning of the end haha..

Lessons aren't over.. but i'm already beginning to mug. This involves cutting lessons that don't help much, and forcing my mind to fully understand everything myself. I think lectures are great.. you can see for yourself how the thing unravels and stuff.. but some things.. you gotta sit down with a book and thrash out the details on your own..

I think for science subjects it means more if you understand stuff on your own, and if you are able to actually explain stuff to someone who has no idea what you're learning. That's what learning is right?

Argh. Blasted material. Need my brain to work faster.

Oh haha on another note.. i went for a run on monday night.. I almost stomped on a frog that dashed out onto the pavement like 3 steps in front of me.. Then it started raining.. ugh..

Being random today.. kinda tired.. i'll try to update more often..

Finally

Okay.. My midterms are over.. for now..
There's still one or two lurking around.. I don't have the energy, or the heart, to check when they occur..

Anyhow.. My Analysis test today was unexpectedly good.. I don't know.. I made mistakes (as usual) but somehow it seemed that the work I put in through the semester started to show through.. and i managed to think analytically (which i suppose is one of the things the module is trying to achieve)

So... Tonight has been spent relaxing.. doing some room clearing.. Doing some thinking, not of the emo kind but of the slow reflection kind.. Its been a good evening..

Oh yes. My coffee ban didn't really work out.. I had two coffees since monday. But those of you who know my coffee addiction would know that TWO is the number of coffees i usually take in a day. So lets keep this going.. I actually feel more awake nowadays.. Thanks for the prayers all...

Mel

P.S. oh yes i went for a run yesterday. my legs hurt.. its been too long.. and yes i went for a run the evening before a test.. oh well it worked out..

BEER!!!

haha many thanks to sarah for sending me the link

BEER!

Mylarone X3

Ok before i go back to work..

The search is over!!!

















I've found the earphones i want.. now its time to just head down to the shop and test them out..

Woohoo!

If anyone wants to get them too now is the time to yell out.. I can make the trip this weekend..

Study study study

Hello everyone..

got some thoughts straightened out so i think i can manage to be stable for a while..

anyhow.. some pictures taken from the library yesterday afternoon.. just my luck.. the first time i decide to sit by the window it rains ha..















But then it got beautiful again....















I was hoping people wouldn't notice some geek taking pictures out the window.. (Like i was taking some pictures of ghosts.. )

鬼啊！！！


But anyhow.. This part of a song came to my mind yesterday..
Who am I?
That the voice that calms the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Okay back to work.. its surprisingly empty in the library tonight.. must be some great conspiracy.. the science library isn't supposed to be quiet and empty. its supposed to be full of muggers.. There's a disturbance in the force.

And i should add myself to the number of muggers.. back to work.. test on friday bleah.. wish me luck!

Psalm 77

I cried out to God with my voice -
to God with my voice;
And He gave ear to me.
In the day of my trouble I sought out the Lord;
My hand was stretched out in the night without ceasing;
My soul refused to be comforted.
I remembered God, and was troubled;
I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.

You hold my eyes open;
I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
I have considered the days of old,
The years of ancient times.
I call to remembrance my song in the night;
I meditate within my heart,
And my spirit makes diligent search.

Will the Lord be cast off forever?
and will He be favourable no more?
Has His mercy ceased forever?
Has His promise failed forevermore?
Has God forgotten to be gracious?
Has He in anger shut up His tender mercies?

And I said, "This is my anguish;
But I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High."
I will remember the works of the Lord;
Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.
I will also meditate on all Your work,
And talk of your deeds.
Your way, O God, is in the sanctuary;
Who is so great a God as our God?
You are the God who does wonders;
You have declared Your strength among the peoples.
You have with Your arm redeemed Your people,
The sons of Jacob and Joseph.

The waters saw You, O God;
The waters saw You, they were afraid;
The depths also trembled.
The clouds poured out water;
The skies sent out a sound;
Your arrows also flashed about/
The voice of Your thunder was in the whirlwind;
The lightnings lit up the world;
The earth trembled and shook.
Your way was in the sea,
Your path was in the great waters,
And Your footsteps weer not known.
You led Your people like a flock
By the hand of Moses and Aaron

regrets

sorry to be emo..



and yes she was my superwoman..

she's never coming back though.

don't worry.. i'll just take some time.. i'll be alright..

Resolution

I think I need to get a grip on my life...

All the coffee, the listlessness...

the phasing in and out of attention..

COFFEE BAN FOR ONE WEEK.

and i mean it.


my mind seems to now only work in spurts of activity.. i can't seem to muster a slow attentive state of calm anymore.. which is strange.. i blame the caffeine and my lack of trust in God for peace..

drained

test tomorrow...

exhausted..

emotionally empty..

recovering from the flu..

and yet.. not falling apart.. somehow...

It is His strength that sustains. His promises give hope.. His presence that fills completely..

ARGH

i started getting depressed just now.. kept listening to sad songs, and especially 我懂了她 by 李圣杰.. No prizes for guessing what i was thinking about.

Aaaanyhow.. i figured it wasn't going to help. and anyhow i've got at test on Thursday.. Sometimes its not what we're thinking, or how we're affected that breaks us down.. Sometimes its also whether we want to try to act according to our feelings, or whether we want to act in an appropriate way..

I think even after a whole year in uni i really haven't gotten down to serious study.. Serious as in.. to really get to know my stuff, to memorise and to be able to explain things at a second's notice..

That's my goal from now i suppose.. Even knowledge accumulation, is a stewardship.

Keep praying everyone..

Mel

Creation Conference!

Hello everyone... I wanted to post this yesterday, but i was kinda tired..

Anyhow Creation Conference was a blast! It really took my breath away, to see some strong support for Creationist views, when the scientific world is increasingly Evolutionist.

I also got the chance to have a little chat with a Physics professor, Dr John Hartnett.. He gave me his name card and told me to let him know if i ever wanted to do postgraduate studies.. Whoa.. He also said they were always looking for good students.

I wonder if i fit the bill.











But i suppose you guys want to know the REALLY JUICY stuff. The really really fun things that I learned at the conference.

Well for one thing, conference attendees are labelled into 2 types. The faithful and the fallen. HAHA

Faithful - Pamela and my sister

















Fallen - Daphne and Yunhui















If you notice the orientation of the photos you'll note i was in the centre, and the next in line to fall asleep haha.. But to be fair it was one of the physics talks and very few people understood what was going on.. It was also one of the late afternoon talks..

Ok ok... You want the proper juicy stuff.

Well creationism is like.. believing what the Bible says. If the Bible says six days of creation, then creation took six days. If the Bible says there was a flood, then there was a flood. The Bible is the authority.. Whether we understand how it all works out, is another thing..

This makes sense if we think about anything else the Bible says. Take salvation for example. We know God loves us, but we can never really comprehend the extent or the kind of love He has for us.. But we know it is there, and we have that faith that His love never fails.

If we take the Bible as truth, we will take the whole Bible as truth..

This means doing away with explanations like millions of years passing in between Day 1 and Day 2 of creation. There was no reason to believe that anything other than EARTH days were implied in the text..

Wow. so much to know.. You know its like I always believed? That creation reflects His glory. This entire universe is the work of His hands.. This conference is like a booster jab for that belief.

Ok thats all I'll write.. I might write more soon..

Ta..

Mel

I'm tired...

I think i'm tired.. like really tired..

I need a break on sunday.. I suggest going someplace for coffee, chilling and reading a book. Who's with me? I suggest TCC at City Hall.

On a nicer side note, I attended the first day of Creation Conference 2007..

I don't know how long the link will last but oh well..

It was seriously refreshing, to see that there is concrete empirical evidence for some of the things suggested in the Bible, like a sudden flood, and that some processes need not have taken as long as we previously imagined.

I'm just tired though, had a horrible quantum test in the morning. Project to submit by tomorrow.

Do tutorial first..

I am seriously going for the coffee thing.. or maybe there's another alternative, like chill in church.. but i need some quiet with soft music.. i can do the music thing in my room, but there are too many textbooks and sets of lecture notes everywhere.. I think I get stressed just walking into my room.

Aahhhh...

Maybe i should take some time to spend with the Lord first..

I got bluffed by probability

Sigh. I could do the sums but i didn't trust my math...

Anyhow, for anyone who's interested, it is actually possible to get an average value of infinity for a theoretical situation..

ARGH.

On to quantum mechanics.

OH YES.... i forgot to rant..

Okay this is juicy, so i can already sense hands being rubbed together in glee..

on Sunday (last day of sept) i went into chapel and stood at the back for a bit.. cause my usual spot was filled and i didn't really want to go into the front.. I thought I'd wait till the YPMS kids cleared out or something.. (I didn't know there was no YPMS that day la).

So some woman comes up to me and starts talking.. To be honest I wasn't paying attention to her. I thought she wanted to stand at the back too.. I was paying attention to the lyrics anyhow.

She kept looking at me and talking, and when I turned to her she was saying

'somethingsomethingblahblah... there was a comment that people are standing at the back, and its not very nice okay. so can you go to the front"

and she was just looking at me.

WAH. I tell you. I held her gaze for a full ten seconds. I wanted to tell her exactly how fat she was, how lousy her dressing was, how stupid she sounded and that she also forgot to say good morning. It is extremely amazing how fast your mind can fly, when you have such unholy motivation.

On second thought I should have just asked her how to receive Jesus. She would have fainted if she had realised that she might have been talking to someone NOT from church circles.

Anyhow after i held my gaze and gave her the most intense glare of my life, (note that I am a
full head taller than her and i'm not that tall), i just said okay, and walked forward.

However thats not the point. Its how you say things. She didn't even have the decency to smile. She didn't start with a good morning, or end with a thank you.

Anyhow.. the whole stupid incident left me feeling angry for the whole of the fast songs... wah.. i just stood there and fumed and fumed. i wanted to trip her, throw eggs at her, break some bones, bribe kids to walk to her and go "ARGH!! scary woman!!! mommyyyy!!!!"

She knows absolutely nothing about me, let alone know me.

Then it hit me. There are a 2 ways to get through the next few minutes. Fume, or forgive. I'm no saint here, it took me like ten minutes to start praying and tell God.. i'm going to forgive her, and i'm not going to pursue the matter.

That was when i really relaxed, and I was able to sing.. and let go.. and Ross Paterson was right, Matt did a great job of worship leading *appreciative applause*.

the next question is how i'm going to get through the next few sundays. It will take more patience, and more forgiveness.

So if any of you read this.. I suggest that if some wierdo comes up to you while you're leaning on the wooden panels on sunday, smile widely, shake his/HER hand and say "Peace, brother/SISTER. Good morning."

argh just talking about this makes me sian

Anyhow. I wonder if i actually passed that test. I did manage to calm down, and absorb the sermon and everything, but maybe there was something else i could have done.

Suggestions? leave some comments or leave a tag.

Onwards to Christlikeness.

Mel

P.S.

anyhow.. here's a picture of the quiet Year 1 Physics lab at 11 in the morning..














It's actually quite serene, with the lights off and sunlight streaming through the windows. Maybe its a relative thing cause i'm trying to cram probability. AH BACK TO WORK

The tests are here

Okay.. its going to be boring for a while..

I'm having tests this week and for a little while...

It's time to clear my explosion of a table and head down to hitting the books..

probability test tomorrow weights 40%.

hoooo boy..

Hopefully I can drive up the probability density function of my grades.
(if you understood that, you also understand that i no longer have faith that marks are deterministic.)

Coffee coffee coffee

Mel