Silent Support (Thats you!)

For some weird reason my blog counter hits have been soaring like crazy.. (I really should change to another blog counter, since this one resets itself whenever I break the 2000 mark or so..) But seriously.. I don't even think my life is THAT interesting haha...

But if, in the off chance that its not a tech defect, then there are people who read my blog, and thank you all for praying, for hoping along with me or just popping in to take a look.. I really appreciate it, and i'll try to spruce things up at the end of the year.

Anyhow.
I've mapped out some things in my head.... seems that there is a time and season for everything.. and some things must be put aside for the greater good.. It seems that God is not yet finished with me, in a lot of areas. (Which, by the way, is not a good thing to claim... It means something like I messed up, got retained and am now in remedial and supplementary classes....) So right now its really a time of going back down to basics. Obedience. submission, and worst of all, faith.

I hate faith. I absolutely hate it. From the time I was young I needed things to make sense, or to put it a different way, I needed to be able to convince myself of things. I think we all can identify with this.. But its not easy to convince when you are trying to be objective.. Every statement you make, you ask yourself if you are sure..

Faith kinda contradicts the being sure part haha....

So where does faith come in for me? I think I can understand that God's love led him to make a sacrifice for us. But everything before, is a total mystery to me.

For example, answer the following questions in any churchy way you like, and feel free to imagine me muttering "It doesn't quite make sense..."

Why does He think we are worth it?
Why does He love us?
Did He really make us to be more than what we are now?

These aren't really questions we can answer well without sounding at least a little bit deluded :)
But these are exactly the questions we need to move forward in life. So let us all convince ourselves, that there are things we cannot understand, but they are true nonetheless, and thus spur each other on.

Heb 10:23-24
(23) Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.
(24) And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works,


P.S. Please remind me to revamp this blog in December...

P.P.S. I almost stepped on roadkill on Monday morning... The bird was.. fresh. Yes. For the drivers among us, please don't drive over any birds.. I really like my shoes..

When the rubber hits the road....

then the shit hits the fan haha...

Shucks I just wasted one hour...

But that doesn't mean I should waste another one...

On to coding!

onward.

Term break

Ah, what will I achieve in this week?

One week of time, leaving one with endless and boundless opportunities....

Perhaps life goes on, one day at a time, one week at a time...

My goal is to master this week, by mastering the hours.....



Onward.

Optical illusion

On tuesday last week my Optics professor (who believes you should buy a girl a drink when you ask her to dance.. and the first beverage he mentioned was BEER, then wine... O_O" ) gave us a revision lecture for chapters 1-4

Me 'Eh, if he revises 4 chapters for us, there's no way he's testing anything futher than chapter 4 for the first test'

Colin 'So when's the test?'

Me 'He's never mentioned it.. Lets ask him'

So we go up to him after class and ask him and he says to us (only to us cause we asked)

"Oh, how about next wednesday?"

SO THERE WE GO. at least he had the decency to announce it the next day.. but still.. what the pok.


In conclusion i'm in the science library studying Optics now..

not good

I think I'm falling ill, with all the frustrating lesson material..

And i'm not up at this time for fun.. I just spent two hours doing one question.

Current events

Hello everyone...

I'm in the midst of fixing stuff (again)...

How do I describe the current situation? I feel like i'm in the eye of the storm.. I definitely know things are raging around me, but I feel oddly calm, and collected.

I have recently been convicted, again, that the crux of the entire matter is back again to they endless cycle of humility, submission and obedience... Of what use is the outward talent and gifts if they are not supported by a very real and strong holiness and intimacy with the Lord?

I don't believe in claiming to be someone I'm not..

So its time for fixing... And perhaps when people give of themselves to the Lord's business, in broken submission, revival is not far off.

Onward.

crawling

So. There are problems in the ministry, my math is getting insane again and I am actually sensing that I'm getting emotional (which is the rarest of all, sadly).

one at a time then.

who knows what will happen next?

onward.