Spoke too soon

Okay, okay...

It is STILL a crazy time.

Matter of hours left...

So much to crammmmmmmmmmmmm......

Mel

Thank you all

Hello everyone...

I have one last paper on saturday and i swear its been a crazy time..

I wouldn't know what I would do without all the little encouragements I get from all of you guys time and time again..

Deeply appreciated..

I think I will do quite badly this semester.. But I will make it up to all of you guys by working doubly hard next sem..

Its the best way I know to thank all of you..

Mel

Erosion

At this point i think it is taking every ounce of mental strength to keep from just breaking down..

I need a break. I need to discipline myself over and over again.. Seems like i keep panicking during exams..

I need a miracle..

Hangover

In honour of my sister's recent hangover episode, I present to you.....



Sinfest..












Mel

Personality test

After much fierce resistance i decided to do the Myers-Brigg personality test, one example of which is here.

Turns out that website thinks that I am a INTJ, which stands for Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging..

Below are the traits that are evaluated through the test..

Introverted / Extroverted
iNtuitive / Sensing
Thinking / Feeling
Perceiving / Judging

Seems like some of the analysis discussed in this article seems to reflect the way I do things.. How accurate is this stuff? Maybe it only works for me.. Maybe some of you can try it out and leave a tag..

Back to work..

Mel

late night thoughts - BGR

As I begin this post i must first say that i am no expert when it comes to BGR. I am not in a successful relationship and I doubt i will be anytime soon. However there are some things that must be said, lest it be assumed that i have nothing to say about the matter.

This post may seem to be extremely personal against one particular person, and full of mud-slinging. I however assure all of you that as i voice my opinions the sword cuts into my own heart as well.

Do I then hold back from saying the truth? I cannot. Because if we were all to hold back from speaking the truth because of our own faults then we would have a diluted and perverted fellowship, each one refusing to confront wrong.

The only way out, then, is to bravely confront the wrong.

I must first talk about emotions.. Emotional neediness. Now.. I'm not exactly the greatest person to preach about the subject. But I will talk about this because it matters.

I'm talking about depending too much on a BGR for companionship. I am talking about repeated BGRs one after another, with no seeming purpose.

I think the cause for emotional neediness is definitely a warped view of relationships. I believe God did not intend a life like that for us. Why would we need to rush headlong into something over and over again, gambling for the 'right' one? What are we looking for? Satisfaction? A rush? Some Hollywood romance scene?

What happens two weeks after the love comedy? Some horror show?

If you're not afraid of the horror show something must be insanely wrong. The very concept of relationships demand trust. And trust involves vulnerability.

Something with great potential for good can cause an equally destructive effect if handled wrongly. Look at all the examples in the Bible. The kings of Israel had so much responsibility.. But usually it boiled down to a 'yes' or 'no' decision. Obey, or sin. The consequences were straightforward too.. And they were kinda huge..

In this case, this vulnerability matters. Humans scar. The world is filled with desensitised people, all trying not to hurt, all trying to care less..

They were vulnerable. They're not vulnerable anymore..

What's the horror show in this case? It could be that someone is be left scarred. Some more, some less. The bigger horror show is the person doing the scarring.

Who's the scarier person in the horror shows? The victim or the perpetrator?

There is a real danger, of falling prey into something you are trying to fix. In order to deal with your emotional needs you try to get into more relationships to get your fix. The person who ends up the most scarred is the one with the warped views..

For everyone else who gets hurt, they will probably be less able to trust, and be vulnerable..

For this person with repeated BGRs?

How long will you repeatedly neglect God's divine Will for relationships?

And indeed, for myself as well. How long will I repeatedly neglect God's divine Will for my relationships in my life?

Amandia and Cara's Birthday! (in alphabetical order)

ok before i forget, their birthday was celebrated on.. weds..

i need to make a birthday list..


oh no lemme check if i took pictures of them both

oops i didn't.. i have videos off my phone.. but i'll figure out how to fix that after my finals..

Anyhow, Fabius and I bought for Amandia (she needs to destress):

6 boxes of fruit tea, all in different flavours..

and for Cara, under the contractor theme:

a hard hat

a lego-ish calendar (you can rearrange the thing every month)

and a photo frame with a window like something from her office


it was massive fun
















haha and yes we packaged the tea in some super super long stick..

ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS.. mandia couldn't stop laughing

before i start cramming

Finally.. my internet connection seems to be slightly more reliable now..

Won't be on MSN cause i deleted it.. I'll be back after my exams..

Now to post some pictures i've been meaning to post for a long time..

Firstly, New Balance Realrun..
































The coolest thing about the run was that they actually printed my name on my tag!! How cool is that.. They gave us all a chip too, to record our time.. I didn't run very fast.. Spent a lot of time waiting for Fabius.. *frown* lesson learnt.. next time we go for runs, we just do our own thing.. it costs too much to be waiting for each other.. Completed 10km in 1:13:25.. which is kinda slow..

Next... Chen Ming in operation
















we were solving maths in the physics lab.. er yeah it sounds weird.. but the lab has an abundance of white boards haha.. and yes sarah the marker comes in handy..

And lastly my latest purchase, the Creative Zen 2GB

















Its only 2Gb, cost me 149.. but its small, and light.. has inbuilt speakers and they have a little stand for you to put the player in, to focus the sound in a certain direction.. cute if you want to use it in the office or something.. but otherwise not really that useful.. the earphones dangling are the Crossroads X3 i posted up earlier.. so far i think Samson has heard the quality.. I should have taken a picture of his face when he was listening to it.. haha.. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.

righty.. thats all for an update.. take care everyone.. back to my physics immersion..