The Past

Father?

I don't get it.

I really don't.

Should the walls go up forever...

It seems the only way to stop hurting...

I don't have this kind of mental discipline.. I don't have it in me..

Is this a trial?

I am sick of failing.

How do I force myself to forget?

Sigh.

Okay, You're right. I did it before. I forced myself to forget something.

I know its possible.

Maybe I don't want to forget.

Maybe I'm afraid of losing something.

Sigh.

Lord?

Help me see that what I have now is not mine, and what I'm afraid of losing, You already hold in Your hands.

Force me to see that, if need be...

Father hold me..