Tuesday, 26 February 2008

WEDNESDAY NIGHT IS COMING

Haha.. anyone for wednesday night romance?

Friday, 22 February 2008

Insane tests day

Yoohoo everyone.. I had a very crazy day yesterday.. with two tests in the morning...

I was close to panicking.. but it went alright..

Classical mechanics was all right.. I actually understand most of it.. It was the thermo test that was crazy..

Lets see how it went..

It was supposed to start at 230, and end at 330. The lecture slot begins at 2 and ends at 4, so of course students will go into the LT and sit there, read, and wait for the thing to begin.. And we'd all expect the prof to say stuff like 'please spread out and don't sit so near each other'.

THIS PROF.

made everyone go to the back of the LT and stand there while he took like 10 minutes to put the answer sheets and questions papers on the appropriate seats.

what the.































AND THEN. we stood at the back while we waited for 230pm.
















absolutely amazing.

anyhow.. i started the test with my mind totally blank.. i was kinda exhausted already.. but i calmed down and things started making sense..

i guess i got lucky somehow.. the questions weren't too killer.. so even though i was still quite blur about a lot of things i could do most of the questions..

all in all, thank God for everything! He rewards those who seek to understand his creation haha..

Now to make the most of my one week break..

Onward..

Friday, 15 February 2008

Some thinking

Hello everyone.. Don't worry i'm not as emo as it sounds..

V-day came and went without much ado.. There was the usual array of people dressed up, girls holding bouquets and the lonelier ones not making any eye contact with anyone at all when they walk around on V-day. I made the fatal mistake of going through some of my past emails when I was asleep (yeah i rigged my phone to my laptop's bluetooth so i can actually email in bed as long as my laptop is online).. and looking back at the past hour, I could have plunged into another deep depression..

But the past weeks of discipline and mental stability have helped.. In my somewhat reckless reading, i realised there were so many markers that hinted, or rather screamed that things were going awry.. but those things were masked behind the 'i-miss-you's and the 'thinking-of-you's and the 'of-course-i'll-see-you-next-week's.. and of course there were things i somehow knew would affect us but i just pushed away..

So the long and the short of it is that i guess it still does hurt, quite a fair bit, to remember that i hurt someone i cared for very much.. The cold irony is that each of us are actually able to hurt the ones closest to us, because we matter the most to them.. That is something that i think most of us would agree with straight off, but personally, it will take me a long time to deal with.. Not just in relationships past, but also present and future..

I don't think I will ever be able to forget what happened, the lesson still scars deeply. But this is how consequences are, when more is at stake we begin to deal with heavier consequences... of course, handled correctly we deal with beautiful results..

Where am I in God's plan then? I don't think I really know.. I know that I am learning, that He is making me stronger through everything so far. As with any mistake we make, this one really makes me want to turn back time and fix everything..

But I suppose one of the lessons I took away is that some things can't be erased and rewritten like pencil scribblings on paper..

So many mess-ups. As someone who takes facts as-is, its not a very light thing.. Part of this whole chunk of a mess is learning to forgive myself. Without disrespect to all the people who have told me this, and who have shown concern before, its not an easy thing.. I don't see this as some small 'oops-i-changed-your-wallpaper' kind of thing.. its more like a 'oops-i downloaded-ten-viruses?' kind of thing..

So, it will be irresponsible for me to forget this whole thing.. Telling me to do that won't work.. I won't learn anything from forgetting..

I intend to continually ponder.. And I will understand myself.. and finally get a grip on my own life.

1Co 9:25-27 ESV
(25) Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable.
(26) So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air.
(27) But I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified.

Right..

Towards Christlikeness.. Onward.

Wednesday, 13 February 2008

Deep Discussion

Okay.. I realise its 1am wednesday morning now, but the discussion I am referring to is the one a couple of friends and I had on monday night, that lasted into the wee hours of tuesday morning..

How do you prove God exists? Put a mathematician and 3 physicists in a room and let them slug it out.

It was a very deep and intriguing conversation.. Flowing back and forth between logic and faith, we had a very good time delving through each other's thoughts and arguments and whether certain statements were valid or not..

Through the entire discussion I realised it wasn't really about who was correct or who had the best belief system.. I realised that to build up a Christian belief system from logic alone will inevitably end in a system that leaves out certain parts of the Bible, because things come in that logic cannot hope to comprehend. Faith, hope, and love.

1Co 13:13 ESV
(13) So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Logic cannot build these things from any system.

I choose to base it on Biblical truth. I choose to look for logical consistencies in the Bible, because I believe that the Bible is inspired by a logical Mind. But, as it is written,

Isa 55:8-9 MKJV
(8) For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor your ways My ways, says Jehovah.
(9) For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.

We cannot rely on logic alone if we want to have a relationship with God. Logic will allow us to deduce certain characteristics that we think God should have, but it does not help us in building a relationship with Him. The crux of the Christian faith is... faith.

Indeed, there is a limit to what our human minds can grasp of who God is. But the study of His Word brings about refreshing truths, and is always rewarding, bringing us closer to the nature of the Most High.

Friday, 1 February 2008

ROOMING PROBLEM 3

SO

i went to talk to 'the man' yesterday. for those of us not in the know, 'the man' is a generic term for anyone of authority, power, or basically THE ENEMY.

so anyhow.. me, the guy who swopped with me (actually a seriously nice guy from china who's super agreeable to everythign so far, including the swop and today's meeting), my physics roomie and the RA went down to talk to them..

and basically it was like some interrogation, they interviewed us all one at a time, asked us for reasons... explained why they have to be difficult.. blahblahblah

AND.

they said they'd give us a decision by next week..

rightttttttt

gosh this is just encouraging people to do illegal room changes.. had i not declared my swop during the room verification, and just pretended to be a guest in the room the request would probably have gone through, and they would have approved this by now..

argh

the price of honesty.