Quick reflection

I have a few hours to go before my first graduate module exam - PC5210 Advanced Dynamics, and I just feel I have to say a few things before I go back to casting my spells.

I actually understand it.

No shit right? I mean, what one earth do we go to school for? But all these convoluted equations that hit you quick and hard, look absolutely HORRIBLE. Not to mention, that everything folds back onto itself. They start somewhere and then show that the answer has repercussions in so many different places.

AND ALL THE EQUATIONS LOOK THE SAME.

But anyhow...

I am now forced to be brave and study now, and it turns out that when you stare hard enough, the goats will actually die.

wait.

i mean when you stare hard enough the equations start to make some sense.

Go with the flow

I remember asking a friend to go with the flow at some point..

Turns out there was more to what I said than anyone (myself included) understood!

Research

Quantumness!

Because i'm studying, and because i vaguely recall someone complaining about studying chinese on Facebook a while back (was it Annette?)


—-Einstein-“Quantum-Mechanics-Real-Black-Magic-Calculus”-Feynman- -

Felicia, eat your heart out.

Tired

I am so tired its ridiculous...

I wish I could sleep in, but I don't think I am going to get much rest till the last day of school this semester..

End of this undergraduate journey

Soooo here it is.. I finally got my graduation letter saying all the stuff about having some degree conferred on me and whatnot (even though technically I graduated in November 2009). I have to say that i didn't really feel much upon opening the letter.. After all I'm still doing modules and going to school, trying to figure out things and get my assignments done..

I guess I never really took the time to let go and take a break in December. I was busy scurrying around doing up my M.Sc. application forms and sorting out stuff for YPM Camp 2009.

A lot has happened to me over the past few years, ever since I joined science orientation week with some really fun people in 2006, and then found myself a Physics major all of a sudden.

So far I have

1) made great friends

2) broken up once

3) kept some promises

4) broken others

5) been confused by many theories

6) understood as many of the above theories i could

7) detected my desperate lack of mathematical skill

8) tried to fix it by pursuing a second major in Mathematics

9) some reasons to celebrate

10) many reasons for regret


bittersweet. oh so bittersweet.

Toxic levels

Holy crap its been an insane afternoon. Nothing really happened, but the massive blast of emo-ness left me reeling and confused. Not that there were any major decisions to be made, but i did do a lot of reflecting during the past week.

So i started on my programming assignment and realised it wasn't going to work out so i'm now in the office with dual screens hoping it will help somehow..

Right.

No recent decisions means i just have to go ahead with the previous ones. duh. simplest of logical reasoning.

Onward.

Insane week

I just want to say that this is an insane week...

Onward.........

So much to say

Okay here's some good news!

My prof recently spoke to me and told me to fill up a form that qualifies me as a graduate research student!

This means i get paid by the hour (up to some maximum number of hours each week)!

This is really quite surprising... and in some strange way I actually feel more motivated to concentrate my efforts into creating more efficient hours..

But things are getting dicey.. I still have modules to undertake and this means exams to study for..

Sigh now I know why the coffee is good. It HAS to be, or the researchers would be rioting...

Onward.

Guess who's back... Back again...

Okay i haven't been blogging for ages but this post is just for me to get used to the idea again..

And i guess i should change the look of this for fun..

Sigh.

I don't really like festive seasons...

I wish.
I wish.
I wish.

Calculating...

It seems I have to do some calculations before the next year begins....

Get to work!

*CRUNCH*

Make no mistake, hell weeks are here....

Onward.

The UROPS journey

Its not much.. But its a start.

Melvyn Congress (Final)

Onward.

Trial time

Am sitting here at my office table after a quick lunch alone..

I've had quite a lot of help on my project so far..
one guy (Thinh) who is doing something related actually went through an entire paper with me, answering all my little questions (some of which really illustrate my lack of technical skill)..
a phd student (Yimin) who took a look at the paper i was studying and said that generalising it to 4 dimensions isn't too hard, and she'll have a look at it too.

So technically these great brains (and some people in the Group who have been spending more time on other things rather than bother about my stuff) have more than what it takes to finish MY project.

!@$@^^!&!*&

After some time emo-ing last night, which lasted about 5 minutes (woohoo record time), i decided to attack it head on and start working on those things i still don't know.

Then came this morning, where i found out i completely forgot about a homework assignment for one of my modules. BLEAH. A good thing the prof said that he'll take the best 3 homeworks out of 4. So i guess I'd better ace the next two..

Planning for YPM camp is another thing.. We have so many ideas, but its like holding in a Rasengan when it all threatens to fly apart in a million directions. Are our foundations laid right? Will it stand the test of time? Do we have the resources to tap on and harness, producing a massive directed effort?

A million worries and only so many hours a day.

Onward.

My little corner

Its not much but I kinda like it..

Following the story

The goal

I hope to be able to say this at the end of this disgusting project...


















Well I'm sure my prof isn't trying to be hard on me but it seems damn impossible..

Sigh.

Onward

Group Photo

An add-on to the post below.. Here's a photo of the people in the Group..